on tuesday i went to church for the first time in over a decade and let the quiet wash over me. it made me feel, all at once, everything and nothing.
on thursday my bunkmate told me that i'd make a good dad one day and that made me feel a soft ache in my chest.
yesterday i took a 3am ride through town and the lights reminded me of you.
and then i figured it out. i figured out what i've been looking for
